Potholes of Dreams

Let me just say..I am girl with a dream..erm..maybe alot of dreams!But I always think my dreams are too big to come true!And laziness and dreaming can never work hand in hand together!Like how i love to procrastinate..whine..drag and stone over what I should do. Then after that i will get fearful if i might get rejected and stuff..And the whole cycle goes around again!

Most recently,Im offered something.And I get all panicky because I do not know if that is really what I want.I mean I know what I want in five years time,but I am nowhere to where I am heading because the whole world thinks I want to be designer!

Yes,fashion is my first love but design is not.I realized only after my first year in the fashion course. And I began to explore the many aspects of fashion.I tried styling,designing and marketing,and although they are really fun and I can perform but.....my dream is to be a fashion journalist!

Yes!I want to write fashion related articles and I believe working in a magazine or newspaper department will expose me to the whole world of fashion like clothes,makeup,skincare,lifestyle and blah blah.You get the picture ya?

So what is this big dream I have?Well,to keep it short and simple.I want to be a fashion editor in one of the leading fashion magazines in the world.Hopefully,CHINA VOGUE!Honestly,as i type this..i am going wow...siao priscilla..fat dream..fat hope:(

And guess what, God has blessed me with opportunities of many. But I do not know which one to take and so I decided to pray..and GOD spoke to me!

I saw myself on a very dry and harsh environment.Just then,I saw myself digging potholes,many of them and wishing the rain will fall and I can drink from them. And i waited super long and the rain never came.So i asked GOD...er where is the rain?And GOD pointed up.I looked up and realized I have pitched a huge shelter over my potholes!Arghghg..no wonder no rain can ever seep into my cute potholes!And a word came: Comfort Zone!

Alright,its time I leave my comfort zone yeah..I told GOD!So i tore down the huge shelter and say.. pls let it rain now?And the rain came,but because my potholes are soo small and many,by the time the rain stopped,I was having a hard time trying to drink and get water from each one. Me being very curious continued to ask GOD,er...still dun have much water le??And next I saw a huge pothole beside me.In it was a whole gallon of water spilling out and GOD said,"Focus on one and work at it."

My heart almost choked after I saw and heard that. Ok..cool,God is soo frank and honest.Actually I know what to do already and so I pray for strength and will power to dream big for no dream is bigger than our magnificent GOD!

p/s:Pls also pray for dear sis antonia!She is going through a really tough time financially,physically and spiritually.Someone just stole her handphone today and she lost all her contacts.Keep her in prayers that a miracle will happen!Mother Mary,intercede for us for Ant to be comforted and assured through this difficult and trying time she is going through.We ask all these in Jesus Name,AMEN!